I don’t recall ever seeing this quote before, but now that I’ve been researching self-discovery, I see it everywhere! And I’ve already found it to be true.
I wanted, needed actually, some guidance as to where to begin with this whole “finding me” project. And voila, several really amazing people with incredible, invaluable wisdom have made themselves available to me! I’ve been treated to accounts of spiritual journeys that began with situations very similar to mine. It’s reassuring to see the parallels, but the real gift is to see where they are now. It is so very inspiring!
Then, once I had an idea of what direction to move in, I knew I needed a good chunk of time to focus on it. I needed a good solid footing in order to get truly invested. To commit, get elbow deep, and get some momentum. I have a history of making plans, some that I am highly motivated to begin, and letting them slip away before ever putting them into motion. But I refuse to let this one go. (That’s actually the main reason I created the blog, as well. I need the accountability!) Anyhow, I wanted time, and bada bing, bada boom. I have a few days off from work, aaaalllll to myself!
I never ever would have said, or believed anything like this before, but I truly think the universe conspired to make that happen for me!
Currently Reading: The Universe Has Your Back by Gabrielle Bernstein
I am going to unapologetically leave this quote here with very little elaboration. It would tarnish its beauty. It has the appearance of simplicity, being just one brief sentence, but bears the weight of dark, deep-seeded emotions.
We’ve been taught not to prioritize our own desires, and feel guilty, shameful, and selfish when we do. In self-discovery, we learn that those desires are actually needs, and we must honor and have faith in them. What a profound message wrapped up in that one sweet little sentence. And so fitting when exploring self-discovery.
I am unapologetic about what I desire, and trust that what I focus on will grow.
I’m not unhappy, per say, but I seek a sense of fulfillment that I neither possess, nor have tended to, for a very long time.
My sense of joy no longer comes from within myself. I find happiness in being a supermom, maintaining a clean and organized home, and providing my kids with an enriching childhood. I take delight in supporting my family, witnessing their successes, and encouraging them to pursue their dreams. That’s what moms do, right?
But why do we stop fueling who we are outside of our mommy roles? We are still unique individuals entitled to goals and desires, right? And I mean more than treating ourselves to an occasional girls night out, or splurging on a cut and color. Real dreams and aspirations as a full, whole person. Adult goals. Exploring our own interests and passions and finding our spark. Mommyhood is amazing, and adds incredible joy and fulfillment, yes, but letting it replace growth as an individual is a mistake.
I know because I did just that. And I need to do some serious work to undo it. For me, 2019 is about rediscovering what makes me happy, from within. Finding my true purpose, fulfillment, and happiness. That is my birthright.